The combination of very little sleep, a very emotional rollercoaster of a week, and my addiction to 80's movies has left in a really wierd mood. I should be sleeping and preparing for a big day tomorrow but I can't. I feel like crying from odd nostaligia and bittersweet feelings of...nothing. I feel like listening to music, reading a book, making a video, something productive but the actual action seems so terryfying and daunting. I have this ridiculous guilt and self hate because I broke my 4.0 streak and it still kills me to this day. My mind seems so cluttered. I am also happy because I have such wonderful friends who are the best people in my life. But, then I feel ridiculous because of the envy I have for how much better they are at life than I am. I know that each person is unique and has their own personal way. I know that I overanalyze everything and I know that envy is not a good thing. But, this is how I feel.
Hi rachel. :) I'm ashley, and u made a comment on my blog a while back. So, I guessed it'd be the nice thing to look at your blog and comment back. :) I think that i'm going to read a little bit of your blog now...
ReplyDeletewhy does it say that I made this comment at 8:10 a.m.?
ReplyDeleteoh, wait a minute...
you're from California.
Okay. I see. :)
*time difference*